@sebbat & hektor (my problems too)

I Just wanna say im sorry. Ive had time to go away and cool down. I was totally out of order before, i shouldnt have said those things before, i didnt mean them, i was just pissed off and wanted to offend you.

Seb and hek are in the area of being my best mates in SoL along with kernow and xaso, i was being far too critical and harsh before, you are both great admins, and even though hektor has made some mistakes, that has nothing to with abillity to do his job, because when it comes to being an admin, he does it really well. So i just want to say sorry to both of you, i was being unreasonable, both of your are my good friends and very responsible competent admins. I apologise.

Ive been having a hard time of late, at home things are not easy, i have my grandma to look after (who i live with) and though for the most part she can handle herself, she still needs alot of help around the house not to mention financially too. And now i have a girlfriend its caused problems because i need to spend alot of my time with her, which means i cant give my gran so much attention, so things are becoming strained. I get pissed off alot now and feel my grandma is asking too much of me, we argue alot because she can be unreasonable, she is demanding too much (especially when i get in from work, im knackerd, the last thing i want to do is work again when im in the house) and she cant comprehend that i have other responsibilities now, and that i need to spend time with my girlfriend.

Despite the fact i love her, she is very old, and even older fashioned. She has completely out lived this generation and it means that our points of view differ vastly and that stops us seeing eye to eye. We always argue and she can be a total nightmare sometimes, it does my head. If i could afford it i would move out, but i cant, so im spending alot of my time shut up in my room out of her way, but then when we do cross paths we argue even more. I dont expect u to understand, but she is bad, she puts an obsticle in front of everything i do. He heart is in the right place but she can inadvertantly be very manipulative. My situation makes me feel so mad, not to mention trapped and helpless.

Then in Jk2 im having problems. I dont know what it is (i spoke to xaso about this) but im just not enjoying the game anymore, ive tried really hard to get on server and have fun, but it just isnt happening. Often when i leave the server, im more pissed off than when i join (There was a time when JK2 was my calming remedy) i dont know why exactly, but there are two contributory reasons,

1. I hate scripters now more than ever before, i go totally mental now when somebody uses scripts against me, i rage and retaliate, then if i keep getting beat, i go more mental still, I hate it and it ruins my gaming pleasure, i cant back down, i fight and i fight and just go in a vicious circle of getting more and more pissed off, its stopped my enjoyment of the game totally.

2. Everybody else seems to getting better than me, and i seem to be moving backwards. It drives me crazy. There was a time when i was a pretty handy JK2 player, but now i get beat from people who i used to win comfortably. Ive trained and trained but its just no progress. I get mad myself when i get beaten from a member who never used to be as good as me, it feels like im doing training and playing the game all for nothing at all. Its ruining my pleasure of the game, and it stops me wanting to play. I dont like taking lessons from people, and i dont like offering people duels anymore for fear of getting beaten. Im just not enjoying this game anymore at all, several times i have considered quitting. (especially considering my external situation now) I was hoping that if i got admin, some more responsibility would make this game fun for me again, but otherwise im just not having fun in the game because im either playing really badly, or just that everybody else is getting better than me. It drives me nuts and make me want to just throw in the towel and give up.

Yesterday laaaaf lamed me, i raged, we ffa'd. He beat me something like 12 times in row, i was fuming, every time he kept taunting me with "noob" "cry" "=]" I was going crazy. Ask blackwolf, he was there, i was going off on one. I got so pissed off at one point i nearly rage quit, but i went for a smoke and came back and he was gone. Im getting serious anger over this game now, its only a stupid game, there are more important things in life, but when im on server all i do is focus on the game, and all my emotions get poured into it. It has become a real problem.

There other day there was just myself and reborn master on server, we ffa'd then he put his chatbox up and i typekilled him. I was like wtf. Then he kept provoking me saying "come kill me" "come kill me" just over and over, really spamming it. when i went away he put his chatbox down and attacked me, then when i fought him back he put it up again. I was going mental. So then i moved away and waited for him to put it down and use rage+speed, he put it down again as i ran at him, i tried to kill him before the typekill took effect but it was too late, i typekiled him. The same thing happened again, with him taunting and attacking, then putting up chatbox, i did it again and was once again too late. This time i got the stun batton. Well them he went to town on me, he pwned me over and over again. The stun batton didnt go away even after several kills against me. I was forced to disconnet and come back. Then i went for him again and the same thing happen. I got the stun baton once again, and he started pwning my arse, i was a sitting duck. I lost my cool compeletly, i went mental. After that i was in such a rage that i disconnected and reconnected and typekilled him when he put his chatbox up, i did this 3 more times, disconnecting and reconnecting each time. I was going crazy. At the time i didnt even care, i was just so fuming. Then people started to join and kernow came on. He looked at the info and saw that i had 7 typekills (i should mention that i was under a different name, i did system restore and had my old ATS tag back, i could be bothered to change it so i change my name to "The JenovA Project"). Kernow slept me and took me to office (not knowing it was it me). At this point i was cooling down and beginning to have regrets, i was ashamed of myself even though i had been serverly provoked into my actions, i tried to hide my identity. Anyways kernow found out it was me, i told him that i was sorry and that i was ashamed of myself. He said he was ok with it.

The point is that because of recents event, im finding this game no fun at all, i dont know what to do now, half of me wants to quit, the other half stay. In my heart of hearts i dont want to leave, but then again how can i play a game that i get absolutley no lesuire or fun out of anymore?

Again sorry to hektor sebbat and kernow.

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If you see me on and you need to release your rage, kill me or whatever as many millions of times as you need. <3

I'd be glad to lurk in the hangar so you can kill me if you need to unleash your rage.

@ your #1

Try not letting the scripting get to you like that. You have no need to feel ashamed of being killed by a scripter. They are cheating, you are not. Plus, I think the scripters that script on our server do it just to try and piss us off. They are succeeding and that is probably what gives them the most pleasure.

@ your #2

Do not mind laaaf, he's always like that. But when he loses, he digs for an excuse.

I will help train you as much as I can if you would like.

I am always willing to help

We can rage on one another, I will enjoy getting rid of this anger ^^, cause we seem to have the same problem

i understand how you feel, phoenix. It s very annoying that you met these cheaters and they beat you easily and so the fact that you lose every time even if it shouldnt be... that s the problem which i still have to fight and to deal with it...

so if i cant play that game anymore, so i go to GTA SA MP and play there and ths is alot more fun and i can chillout there bc it s just easy to play there - so i mean , if you cant manage to do something properly, leave it for a while and then try it again later.

np phoe ... if you wouldn't use rage you would be really good ffaer ... if scripter beats you dont care ... relax... you dont need to get mad when scripter beats you ... and if he hunts you , just go to training (lol) and duel with friends ...

I understand your personal problems ... (i have them too, but nobody here understands) ...but really you dont need to get raiging and mad from this sh!t (jk2)... scripter wants to make you rage ... so dont let him be happy and leave him ... just dont ffa him ...

btw have you got xfire ? or msn ? bah ... i ll PM you and send you something which will help you make this game really funnier ...

Your "The Jenova Project"??
Care to tell me why you constantly chased me with Lightman?

Remeber phoe....if someone beats you with a script.....it means you are ALOT better than them......and there's no need to rage if people who you used to be able to beat and they can now beat you.....that's no problem,skill doesnt matter at all. So good luck! and I hope you dont leave... (ps:I voted for you on DC admin)

Bah, it's not because people use scripts that they sux without.

And just one thing : i never want to hear anymore that you don't care about skills, because look at what it leads : People are getting pissed of being pooned all the time.

Why ? because they are used to get saber off when they are attacked, or ask for emp.

I don't want to offend anyone, but the best would be that you try to improve a bit your skills, then you'll have fun without being annoyed by idiots thinking they are bests.

You don't want to get lessons from other people, but it will be your only way to improve. You'll get skills by knowledge, and this will come from people teaching you. So you have no choice Phoenix. I'm even ready to teach you ffa if you want, if it could make you enjoy the game again.

thx guys.

Danek360 wrote:

Your "The Jenova Project"??
Care to tell me why you constantly chased me with Lightman?

Danek i honestly cant say i remember this. But i thought you knew that i called myself that sometimes, us being final fantasy fans and all that. Although i have been in a few rages, so if i did harm you (which i cant remember) then i apologise.

Maybe i just need to keep practicing, and ignoring the scripts.

He is one problem. I came on server and thought i was playing pretty well, I had a few duels, one with that Eddie guy (who lames alot), and several with lusant. Ive been using st much much more and it appears to work, i actually beat lusant in 1 duel, which i was happy with because he's and experienced player and he was LS, which is always my weak point. So up to that point i was happy.

Then Laaaaf started being a prick trying to lame so we ffa'd. He killed me something like 12 times in a row. I was loosing the plot because laaaaf sucks. Jesus Christ half of SoL can pwn laaaf, yet i just couldnt beat him, he was taunting me all the time with "cry" and "nab", he's an arsehole. But the fact that i couldnt beat him just drove me crazy. He isnt that good of a player, and like i said, most can own him. So i was so angry with myself that i couldnt beat him, i nearly rage quit.

I also assessed his play, and it appears he doesnt script, which makes things even worse for me.

Phoe i understand u, i TOTAL RAGE when a scripter kill me :/

Its injust, they have only 1 key to kick and the guys w/o cheats have to press two times space bar,

With the time, u can learn to kick like a script, but u have to be fast... Fight scripters, train with em

Then u will be better than they, you can do it just think in train hard then u will can say

He kill me with scripts, but i can kill him w/o cheats, just pure skill

About laaffy... He is annoying just drain spam, all lose vs drain spam, Nibler loses with laaff sometimes...

Later Phoe

I gotta say some words here. 1st, Phoenix we luv u man. 2nd, O M F G (whats with the Turtles stuff L M A O). I got a few laughs from what you wrote only because it reminded me when I was a frustrated jk2er like 3 months into the game. I feel for you. When I started I didn't know how to change saber style for like 3 months and no one would ever help me. :p Finally, a player named Makreth helped me and I started to get a lot better. Can't believe I remember his name. He only helped me once.

Some pointers, if you have bad ping ,or facing scripter, don't attack straight on. You will lose. Many players are boring and have a straight on attack. This is advantage to the scripter. Let them move 1st then move to side and st or pk them. Learn to feint one direction get them to commit to attacking you then move in other direction and attack their side or back. Also, you have to be really good to use rage against good players. In cool down you are left vulnerable with low hp. With laaaff he has better ping. I bet he's grip/kicking you to death. Don't try pull/push to escape. Use drain. Or change tactics completely and become good ls player. I feel kinda bad cuz I had been helping laaaf a lot and he's gotten much better. So that is kinda my fault. Many of us know he is talkin "Best" kinda talk now for a while, and taunting. He reminds me of when Boss went down tha dark path after Azzy kicked him from o.o, but Boss was way better player.

Anyway, if you let these f a g s get to you you will find you lose in more ways then one. You lose your cool and it lets them destroy your morals too. Even Peg gets mad sometimes and it costs him. He has gotten mad at me sometimes and chased me. Once he's off his game he pays. In real life people will test you too. Sometimes you need to walk away and not act out of anger. Think things out better before you act. One of the Roosevelt presidents, either Franklin or Teddy, used to write a letter to someone they were mad at in the moment of anger. Then they would put it in their desk for like a week or more. After some time passed they would take it out and read it. I bet many times they were glad they didn't send the letter straight away. Anger leads to hate my friend. Control, you must learn control.

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I appreciate your support and understanding wehr.

nice words wehr.

Karma for Wehr.

Wehr i luv u

I dont want to make u mad phoe but i can beat laaaf quite easy but once i proved I was better than him...he was actually quite nice to me!

BDL what the hell makes you think i'd want to know or care about that useless information?

Because if you tried then you could be friends with him.

Friends with laaaf? meh i dont think so, he is a lame, a wind up merchant and loves taunting and taking the piss. He's always winding somebody up, thats why i dont like him much.

@ phoe u'd be able to Own me when i get back on dude


You're still #1 to me phoe