Dont worry im still gone, i uninstalled earlier and deleted everything, but i still been checking the forum for a couple of minutes each day, and i remembered that i wanted to comment on this.
I dont make any quarms about it, death scares the shit out of me. Its not so much the death itself, its the unknown i fear, im not a particularly religious person (even though i was christened catholic), but i would like to believe there is "something", after death. I dont think dying would bother anybody, if we knew we would still have some form of "afterlife", or even just some form of "consciousness". Its the "knowing nothing, for eternity", that i think scares everybody. But i take comfort in the fact, that although one day i will die, so will the other 6 billion people on this planet.
Whether God is real, i do not know, but unlike the church, im not arrogant enough to convince myself or anybody else either way, especially when it relies on blind fate. Im a man of facts and evidence, and when the time comes, thats when i will know (or wont know). Death is that one path, that all of us must walk. I dont care who you are, even the most religious person in the world, must have his doubts, because not to have them, is "inhuman", and as far as im concerned, ignorant. But "apparently", death is more feared by the young, than the old. The older a person gets, (obviously this will still vary from person to person), the more, it is said, that they learn to accept the fate. Not only do they loose fear of death, they embrace it. Happy are those who accept without strife, that they must die, and instead look upon death, as a well earned eternal sleep.
What strikes me as strange, is that what ever happens, in the end (either death, or eons after) we loose. Because its funny to say this, but there is only one thing i can think of that would be worse than death, and that would be living forever. Few manage to grasp the sheer magnitude of that word, but consider, that even with an afterlife, there will come a time when you have said/done everything that could be possible a million times over, and at that point the afterlife would become as mundane as being the alternative "unconsciousness" that death may bring. How strange that notion is.
Anyways, this video is really sad, because that bloke had such spirit and enthusiasm, it really inspires me when i see somebody like that, be so positive and optimistic. I noticed that he was playing Walting Matilda on his instument, that song is very meaningful to me, and quite apt considering im going to Australia soon (because its an Australian song ofc). Its great that he can share his emotion with others, because what we forget, is that he is only one person, there most be so many just like him in the world, who have loved and lost and then see the end themselves, and yet still nothing will wipe that smile from their face. Impervious to whatever life or even death can throw at them, there are some people in the world who appreciate what they have, so much, that just their own exsistance, is in enough proportion to make every second of their journey, as epic as they could have ever wished. That how truly appreciating life, can ensure that every single moment, is one of euporia.
Maybe time cant heal all wounds, but maybe HOPE can...
Thats all i wanted to say.
Goodbye again. <3