Fine his bro died, obviouly that must be soul destroying for him, and he has my sympathy.
However i dont matter how bad u feel, you cant take your anger out on others, it is not fair at all, u may be angry or upset but that doesnt give cibbi our anybody else and excuse to harm others of make them victims of your wroth.
If somebody is winding u up, and trying to piss you off then that is a different matter, under such circumstances as cibbicom's it would be easier to prove a reaction for him because of his vunerable feelings, and therefore it would be understandable if cibbi retaliated towards that person.
But taking your anger out on other people, or unprovoked attacks on innocent players whether u are upset or otherwise is totally intolerable.
Dont think for one second i dont understand your situation cibbi:
Two years ago one of my best friends in my whole life hung himself in his own house. He went up to the attic and tied a rope to a beam, then jumped down into his bedroom and hung himself, he was found the next morning by his step father. No note, no reasons, to this day nobody knows why he did it. I guess he must have been depressed but at the time none of us new anything, we thought he was fine. This loss really effected me and upset me and my friends and his family so much, for a time, everybody was totally destroyed and the funeral was absolute torture, but even then i looked to others for support, and i certainly didnt take my anger out on somebody else.
Now because that was your bother, your feelings of loss would be even greater than mine, but even the it important to control your emotions and not victimise others because of your bad feelings.
Also, try to have a little understand how lucky we are to live in the western world, try to empathise with the fact that there are so many less fortunate people than yourself, there are people in Africa with no food, and dying with AIDS. There are people in Iraq, Afghanistan, palistine everyday getting killed by suicide bombers and car bombs or fire arms. Coalition troops (british and american and other countries.) who are dying everyday to try and defend their country, there are so many people across the world who are murdered and have car accidents and illnesses.
I take so much for granted everyday, we all do, everybody lives in there own little bubble and sometimes we forget all the problems in the world. But when i think about this, it makes me appreciate life so much more!
Im not saying you shouldnt mourn your brother, of course you should, its an tragic loss that u will never truly get over, u loved him and you reserve the right to be true to that.
But unfortunatly we are all going to experience this in our lives, we die, our friends die, our family dies, but always the show must go on!
(im sorry if this sounds insensative im not trying to sound like that at all. Im a just a realisic person and a man of the world, so im just trying to be honest).
2007 was a bad year. I went to three of my friends funerals.
One of my best mates as ive alreads said, Another person i knew from where i live, who was a girl who died in her sleep from having a fit and choking on her vomit (as if that wasnt bad enough, she was pregnant at the time), and other guy i knew who had a heart attack in a swimming pool and drowned.
Any why my point is that such things are very hard to deal with but try to remember that there are people all over the world who are suffering the same things as you, its difficult i know, but if you can do that, then you can control your emotions more and learn to deal with things better mate. The key is to look to others for support, not to take your anger out on others.
And finally mate im very sorry to hear about your loss, it is tragic, you have all of our sympathy