I've mentioned this on a few topics recently, but never officially explained, but from the outside, it probably looks as if I'm half active half inactive, so here is a more detailed explaination of where I am, at the moment.
I'm not getting on the server very much these days, in fact I think I've maybe only been on 3 times in the last 3 weeks, thats an average of only 1 session a week, and a session is usually less than 2 hours... really not much at all, no wonder I suck haha
The reasons? Well I'm busy with finding my feet in UK still, I have a job, but it's not going as well as I, or my bosses would like, I have another month left on my probation, then it's either welcome to the team, or the walk of shame. My employer has stated that I'm not currently meeting all the criterea, and they still need to see more from me, not an easy thing to hear, but a harsh truth I guess. Because this current job isn't full time, and hangs on a knife edge, I'm busy sending resumes so I can find other oppertunities too. Theoretically, I could be out of a job in a months time, and If i can't find a new job straight away, the likelyhood is I'll loose my house soon thereafter, so naturally I'm finding this general situation stressful and worrying.
Then I'm also trying to get out and meet new people, because I've moved to a new area, and need to make friends, then there is all the other responsibilties that come with running house, the shopping, cooking, cleaning, ironing etc etc... there really is no rest for the wicked, it's only now at 25, I realise how much an independant person has to deal with. The last 2 years don't really count, because although I went travelling alone, I was constantly surrounded by people, in the same boat, in a sometimes sheltered and comfortable environment. It's not the same as having bills to pay and maintaining a household, all on your own shoulders. One thing I've learned is, in the real world, once you have finished work, thats when work begins at home.
The downtime I do get, I watch TV or ps3, because I dislike being confined to the bedroom, where my laptop is. I do however at least get on the forum most days, and catch up with goss and latest matters. If I was gonna be voted for a postion, i'd be more suited to forum responsibilities at the moment, rather than server ones.
I'll try and get one server more, I really wanna fight Vader for Blue, which is long overdue, but we haven't been on together for a while, and my skill is still mediocre from rustyness. But don't expect a dramatic increase in my activity, I can't see it happening. (Although I do have a week off next week)
Anyways, enough about me....