A Personal note

I've mentioned this on a few topics recently, but never officially explained, but from the outside, it probably looks as if I'm half active half inactive, so here is a more detailed explaination of where I am, at the moment.

I'm not getting on the server very much these days, in fact I think I've maybe only been on 3 times in the last 3 weeks, thats an average of only 1 session a week, and a session is usually less than 2 hours... really not much at all, no wonder I suck haha

The reasons? Well I'm busy with finding my feet in UK still, I have a job, but it's not going as well as I, or my bosses would like, I have another month left on my probation, then it's either welcome to the team, or the walk of shame. My employer has stated that I'm not currently meeting all the criterea, and they still need to see more from me, not an easy thing to hear, but a harsh truth I guess. Because this current job isn't full time, and hangs on a knife edge, I'm busy sending resumes so I can find other oppertunities too. Theoretically, I could be out of a job in a months time, and If i can't find a new job straight away, the likelyhood is I'll loose my house soon thereafter, so naturally I'm finding this general situation stressful and worrying.

Then I'm also trying to get out and meet new people, because I've moved to a new area, and need to make friends, then there is all the other responsibilties that come with running house, the shopping, cooking, cleaning, ironing etc etc... there really is no rest for the wicked, it's only now at 25, I realise how much an independant person has to deal with. The last 2 years don't really count, because although I went travelling alone, I was constantly surrounded by people, in the same boat, in a sometimes sheltered and comfortable environment. It's not the same as having bills to pay and maintaining a household, all on your own shoulders. One thing I've learned is, in the real world, once you have finished work, thats when work begins at home.

The downtime I do get, I watch TV or ps3, because I dislike being confined to the bedroom, where my laptop is. I do however at least get on the forum most days, and catch up with goss and latest matters. If I was gonna be voted for a postion, i'd be more suited to forum responsibilities at the moment, rather than server ones.

I'll try and get one server more, I really wanna fight Vader for Blue, which is long overdue, but we haven't been on together for a while, and my skill is still mediocre from rustyness. But don't expect a dramatic increase in my activity, I can't see it happening. (Although I do have a week off next week)

Anyways, enough about me....

Don't worry too much Phoe, just make the right choices and you'll be fine.
And yea it'd be nice to have that tourny.

Life comes first phoe, you are doing it right, dont worry

Yes i understand u have troubles with your life in the areas about your workplace and home. It is very hard to find a time to have a pause and relax on gaming. But like gonza said, life comes first and i wish u good luck on finding an other place to work if the employer does not expect u in his company.

Agreed to all   

in fact Phoe, I think the way it is, it is quite natural and healthy for our age. we care for our real life much and jk2 comes somewhere behind. but we still dont let it down. it is a higher effort in my eyes, in relation to back when we were younger and could play as we wanted ^^

If internet were affordable in 2002 i d sure be one of the oldest players.

First tackle the real tourney called life, that's more important, Pho, don't worry, it will be all good